7 Ways I Lost My Mind

Come 2 p.m. yesterday I was ready to curl up in a ball on my nanny families couch and cry myself to sleep.  If only Roman could watch his 3 year old self without supervision...but then I would lose my job and since I already almost lost one job, I decided it wouldn't be wise to risk losing my favorite job.  

If almost losing one job wasn't bad enough, I have had everything that could go wrong go wrong over the course of the last two weeks or so.  I swear I am losing my mind.  If this month doesn't end soon then I think I really might curl up in a ball on my couch and wait till it does.  Actually how about we just skip right on to Christmas break?
How have I been losing my mind lately you ask?  What all has gone wrong?  If we are friends on Facebook you have already heard most of these.  But we all know nothing really happens unless I blog about it.  Because that seals the truth forever (say what??? see I am losing my mind)
1.  I placed an order online and gave the wrong credit car number.  Now for a girl who shops mostly online this is defeating.  At least the girl I bought from is a friend (Hi Haylie!) and totally understood.  And at least I got my package in the mail yesterday.  Nothing is better than new makeup and face cleaners!

2.  I place another order online a couple weeks back and did not give my full address.  I did not figure this out till 3 days after it has been shipped back to the sender.  I really wanted that cardigan...
3.  I place ANOTHER order online through Amazon for Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.  Considering I just finished Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone I have been dying to get my hands on the book.  It was should have been delivered by yesterday.  Amazon said I got it a week ago.  I have yet to see it.

4.  I agreed to babysit for a Halloween party Friday night.  I thought it was for friends of my nanny family, so I told them I would see them there.  It was for a completely different family that they don't even know.  Maybe I should make sure to get names before I say anything...
5.  That job I mentioned I almost lost?  My substitute teaching job.  I missed subbing for one important day, which they told me was not that important and would not matter, and next thing I know they are telling me to resign.  I was not about to go down without a fight.  Fortunately, they heard me out and I get to keep making the big bucks!
6.  I forgot all about filing for financial aid and found out last week that I needed to pay my tuition.  Yeah I don't exactly have that kind of money just sitting around.  Fortunately they still let me file and only gain a couple late charges.  
7.  I had to put together a brochure for a support group I help run.  First off I HATE BROCHURES.  Second it took me two hours to complete.  I created 5 brochures till I finally liked one enough to send it to my supervisor.  That is after asking her what the initials for a group name stand for...
All I need to do is make it through this week and this month and this year.  Lots of prayers for some sanity would be greatly appreciated.  I will leave you with the wise words of a 5 year old "I think my brain fell out.  Do you think that could really happen?  I don't feel it in there anymore.  It definitely fell out."

Fall In A Cup

This time of year there is one fall/winter drink that calls my name.  The memories of the big pots on the stove, smells of cinnamon and cloves, and and when in North Carolina it warming you up from the inside out.  Both sides of my family have their own recipe, but I have to say I am pretty partial to my Mom's!
The combination of orange and lemon and cinnamon and cloves with a little sugar and tea creates my most favorite drink.  Russian Tea.  I am curious who has all heard of this?  Is this just something from my family or do you enjoy it as well?
After making it this past week, I just knew I had to share the recipe.  Mom calls it the cure all for everything.  Have a cold?  Russian Tea.  Tired?  Russian Tea.  Cold day outside?  Russian Tea.  You name it Russian Tea can fix it. It is the one smell and taste that will forever remind me of my childhood and family.
Ingredients 10 tea bags (I had family size on hand and used 7) 3-4 cinnamon sticks 4 teaspoons whole cloves 12 oz. lemon juice 12 oz frozen orange juice concentrate 2 3/4 cup sugar 6 quarts of water
In one pot combine 3 quarts of water, sugar, cinnamon sticks, and cloves.  Bring to a hard boil for 5 minutes.
In another large pot bring 3 quarts of water to a boil, turn off burner, steep tea bags for 5 minutes.
Combine both pots.  Add lemon juice and orange juice.  Stir.
This makes quite a bit so make sure to share with your family:) It is also safe to put in a container and save in the fridge to reheat over time (my favorite part) Super simple recipe. Super amazing drink.  I am basically living off of it this week! Enjoy my friends!

We Are Made For Community

My favorite little community

One of the running jokes about Milligan is how much they say the word "community".  It is a common theme there that the school desired to instill in all of the students who walked through their doors.  While we may have made fun of all of the opportunities for community while there, I now realize just how right Milligan was.
Whether I come at this topic from a psychological point of view or a a Christian point of view, I come right back to the same thought: we were not made to be alone.  Raise your hand if you love being lonely? Anyone?  Didn't think so.  We are made for community.
As a counselor I believe we need people in order to make it through this life.  If we didn't, then I would not have a job.  People come to me for support and someone to lean on when times are tough.  We work together to solve problems and make a plan for their current journey.  For many we try to find someone(s) who can support them during a time of need.  Everything I do revolves around creating a community around you and being in community.
In Romans 12:4-5 it states, "For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others."
We all have come from one body, and while we do have many different functions, we all need to come back together and work as a whole.  I love that this is the way God has created us.  To me it shows how much He loves us.  He loves us so much that he gave us the support we would need to get through life.  We are meant to work together at life, lean on one another, and help those in need.  
Now that I am post graduation, living on my own, and having to find my own community, I am thankful for the lessons Milligan taught me.  I have been able to make/find my own little communities here.  My classmates, my work, my family, and my work friends.  But being that I am not in college I find that the loneliness does come.  All I have to do though is seek that community and I am filled again.

A Big City Move?

I was born and raised in Lakeland, Florida.  Lived here for 18 years and then off to college I went, in Johnson City, Tennessee.  Neither of which are big cities by any means.  When I moved back to Lakeland in 2013, I believed this is where I would stay for a good long while.  Then I went to grad school and found out how little jobs there were here for me and how little money is made in my field here.
So this got me thinking, should I move to a bigger city?  Yes I know money is not everything, but I do have to make a living and I will have plenty of student loans to pay back soon.  So money is kinda of important to me.
While in Atlanta, I started asking myself if I could live there or not.  It is about the only BIG city I could see myself in and have always loved it there.  I would definitely have more job opportunities and there is a pay difference in the big cities (and out of Florida).  But could I really ever make the move?
I decided the only way I could really even begin to make a decision about this is to make a pro's and con's list.  Here is what I have so far:
Pro's: More jobs Higher pay You can walk and take trains everywhere (which I love the idea of not driving all the time) Always something going on in cities There are actual seasons outside of Florida ( not just hot, hotter, and sweat your makeup off hot) I love changing my surroundings It would be an adventure
Con's I would be away from my family (8 hours if in Atlanta) Higher crime in bigger cities Higher living expenses (comes with the higher pay) I hate crowds and cities seem to always be crowded I would not know hardly anyone
My family is probably reading this wondering where in the world it is coming from.  Little do they know this has been on my mind for quite some time.  Do I think it will actually happen?  I don't know.  Lots and lots of praying will have to be done to see if this is in the plans.  
Have you ever made a big move?  Do you live in a big city? Share your thoughts and help a girl out!

Weekend Recap: Atlanta Style

For the month of October I have either had somewhere to go, someone coming to me, or something big going on each weekend.  While it has been quite fun and exciting, I am very ready for a weekend home, curled up on my couch, with nothing to do.
This past weekend I headed up to Macon, Georgia with my friend, Brittany, to visit my sister and her boyfriend, and to also see Boyce Avenue in concert.  If you have not heard of them, go check them out right now.  I will wait...
Ok so now that you have seen how awesome they are, you now know why I traveled to go see them in person.  I will talk more about that in a bit...but let me just say they were AMAZING!
I drove up Friday with Brittany and it was so nice to have someone other than my sister's dog Boone to ride with.  Definitely made the drive less awful.  Except we hit major traffic the whole weekend and Brittany got to see my crazy road rage.  In her words "I have never heard you curse this much before" and she had known me for over 2 years.
Friday night was spent hanging out with my sister Mattie, her boyfriend, and many of her friends. Lots of fun if you ask me!
Saturday we woke up and after Brittany made us french toast for breakfast (which was amazingly delicious), we headed on a walk in a local park to wear Boone out for the day.  It was such a gorgeous walk and it totally made me wish I lived there and could run the trails!

We came home, made lunch, got ready and headed out for Atlanta for the concert.  Mattie had also gotten tickets for a soccer game for both her boyfriend and Brittany's.  So we needed to go see him so the guys could go to the game.
We got to the concert right as it was about to start which caused us to not be able to find seats.  Mattie being newly out of a cast on her right foot, could not stand the whole time.  So she pulled the cripple card and we got to sit right next to the stage in the ADA section.  This means no zoom was used on any pictures at all!

Mattie had seen Boyce Avenue in concert before, but this was me and Brittany's first time.  I was seriously blown away by them and would definitely go see them again!

Our seats were right near where they entered the stage.  This meant Mattie could peek under the curtain and see the guys before the came out.  She kept us filled in on what they were wearing, doing, and saying.

So you know how there is always that one couple that is too mushy?  We got lucky and had one right next to us.  Every time their favorite song (every other song) came on they would turn to each other, look deeply into each other's eyes, and sing.  And then the girl dry humped him the entire time.

After the concert was over we had made plans to meet the guys somewhere to watch the last part of the FSU game (per Mattie's request).  Well we were all smart and all but my phone died during the concert.  Mine was on 1% when we left.  So we had to each write out directions out on our hands so we could get there.  Only we would do that.

After finishing the game at the one place that was out of EVERYTHING, we headed back to Macon at 12:30 AM.  We had over an hour drive, I-75 closed down and we didn't get home till 2:30.  Thank goodness for Jamison who was willing to drive!
Sunday we slept in, grabbed brunch, and then Brittany and I headed back home.  It was totally worth the trips, but I really do look forward to being home in my apartment for the next couple of weekends!

Random Life Happenings

Figuring out how to share my life on this blog has been fun, but sometimes difficult.  Little things happen that I want to share, yet they aren't exactly worthy of a full blog post.  So I came up with this post to share all those random life happenings!

If you follow me on any social media then you saw last week that I had my carpets cleaned (woohoo) and then thought I lost Brutus in the process.  While the guys were there cleaning the door had to be open and I thought I had done a good job of making sure he didn't get out.  But then they left and I could not find him ANYWHERE!  I freaked out and started sobbing ugly uncontrollable tears.  Then as I was leaving my closet from searching for him, I saw the glint of his eyes in the upper corner.  He was scared and hiding as far away as possible.
I have gradually been getting back into subbing this year.  So far I have been up at the middle school a lot.  Not exactly my favorite age group, but I gotta make the money.  Most of the kids are great, some remember me from last year, and others I have wanted to rip my hair out being around them.  #reasonswhyineverbecameateacher

I have been trying to cook a lot more lately.  I save money and it is way better for me to do.  I have loved being back in the kitchen, even if it is tough cooking for one.  So far I have made a broccoli and cheese casserole, chicken poppy seed casserole, and a taco casserole.  I think I have a thing for casseroles!  Any body have another good casserole for me to try?

For the last couple of months I had been using a different office at work when I had clients at the same time as my coworker.  Well the facility finally approved for me to call that office home and as of last week it got painted, I moved in all the toys, and I can now say I have an office!  Next steps: get an ID tag that doesn't say "volunteer" and a key to get in my office.  Working my way up in the world friends!
Well friends those are some of the fun things going on! Life is always busy and I am always on the go.  But things like a new office and cooking have been keeping me grounded.  Here is to a new week!

Online Dating: Am I Too Picky?

Even before I decided to try online dating I knew I was pretty picky about who I would date.  If you have been around these parts for a long long time then you know I have only been on one date and that was when I was 20 years old.  Usually what has happened is I like a guy one day and then the next I am over it.  Or maybe I am just too picky...
I told myself when I first signed up for Online Dating that I was going to be as picky as I wanted to be.  I am not desperately seeking a husband or needing to have kids by tomorrow.  So I would wait until the right person comes along, whether online or in person.
But I have been asking myself lately if maybe I am too picky and have too high of expectations.  I have definitely seen some guys online that I would want to get to know more.  And there has definitely been some guys who have wanted to get to know me more.  At one point though, I had looks at over 300 profiles and only liked 20 of them...
One of two things usually happens when I look at someone's profile.  One I am attracted to them but their job/education/ activities do not match what I am really looking for.  Or two their job/education/activities match what  am looking for but I am not attracted to them.  Granted for the second one I am going off pictures and I have quickly learned that guys have no idea what pictures look good and what pictures look awful.
So do I give someone that falls into one of those two categories a chance?  Or do I stay picky and wait?  To be perfectly honest the only ones I have second guessed are the ones who I am not immediately attracted to.  I tend to wonder if in person they are more attractive than their pictures.  But then I talk myself out of things a move on for the time being.
So as usual, I am seeking yall's advice on this one.  Do I stay picky or do I open up my standards a little bit?  You guys always have the best advice, so help a girl out!