As we all know back in May I moved back to Florida for grad school. I was so excited to be near my family again and super close to the beach. I couldn't wait to get my own place, start school, and start working. What I didn't think about was how hard it was all going to be.
I have been struggling a lot lately with the move. Was it the right decision for me? Yes I 100% believe it was. But that has not stopped the sadness and grief of leaving friends and places in Tennessee. I have been missing everything and everyone so much lately. I never thought I would say this, but I even miss the snow and cold weather!
Leaving my friends was not easy. And it has put major strains on some relationships which has even moved towards destruction of some those friendships. And it absolutely hurts my heart everyday that this is going on.
I want my friends back. I want to see them every day or at least every week. I want to spend quality time with them (my love language). I want to know what's going on in their lives and them to know what is going on in mine. Seeing them once every couple of months is not living up to this.
Yes I have amazing friends here in Florida. And no they do not become besties over night. It takes time to form strong relationships. I just miss my girls. I miss having to not have to explain myself or worry about saying the wrong thing. And I know with time that will happen with my friends here.
I really am just missing Tennessee something fierce lately. It was my home for four of the best years I have ever had. I learned so much during that time. I discovered who I was and wanted to be. I met people who will forever be part of my life no matter where we live. I just want to go home. My Tennessee home. My Milligan home.
Please tell me this is normal for recent college grads and I am not just the weird one here!