I know what has caused this...that's the worse part. It's all about my diet. I am not necessarily eating bad, I am just not eating the best I can. I also have problems saying no to food. If I'm hungry I eat. If I am bored I eat.
Also being surrounded by people who are not on the same page as I am is hard too. It sucks having skinny friends who can eat whatever they want and still look amazing. That is so not my life and never will be.
Also my workouts have not been what they were. I just have hardly anytime. I go from 6:30-5 Monday-Thursday. And by the end of the day I am exhausted. I have been running three times a week which is good, but I know I need more than that.
I miss being around my family who supported and encouraged me every step of the way. I miss having a trainer who was always on my butt making me do things the right way. I am the first to say I cannot do this on my own.
I wanted to be down 50 pounds by graduation which is in 3 months. Is that going to happen? Probs not. And while that is completely ok, I know I do not want to be sitting at 190 still come graduation.
I want to be the hot skinny girl at graduation. I want to be the best looking bridesmaid in Becky's wedding. I want my confidence from 4 months ago back. I NEED to do this to be healthy most of all!
So here is to refinding all of this and a restart. I WILL do this. I WILL reach my goals!