The other night I was having a good long talk with one of my best friends, Lauren. We get deep a lot and that night was no different. Without totally telling you everything we were talking about (super long story) at one point she said I didn't need her because I was strong (apparently like a cactus?) and could make it on my own. My first reaction was "Of course I need you your my best friend!" And then my second one was "Me strong?"
I don't necessarily consider myself to be a strong person. I make it through life by faking it. I fake it till I make it. I tell myself to smile and then I will be happy. I tell myself to just do it and get the grade. I tell myself to get through this and then I can go home. I tell myself to act like I don't care in front of others and they won't know my insecurities. I tell myself to act smart and use big words. I tell myself to yell and not cry.
I fake it till I make it. If this makes you think I am strong than so be it. I have been through my share of hard times. I have dealt with lots of drama. I have had all the normal troubles of the average 22 year old with maybe one or two bigger things thrown in. That to me is life. It got thrown at me and I dealt with it.
But does this make me strong? I don't know. Yes, I have figured out how to make it through problems in my life. Yes, I know how to put a smile on my face and power through. I also know I have some good advice to give out. But I don't think this makes me strong.
To me, the only reason I am strong is because of Christ. Without him I would not be strong. He is my strength and tall tower (Psalm 61:3).
Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through him who gives me strength"
I don't always have the strength to get through things. Rarely does it come naturally. I think this is my biggest prayer every day. For strength to get through something. Strength to overcome. Strength to fight. Strength to stand strong. Strength for everything. I rely on Him at all times to give me the strength I need.
So if you think I am strong person...think again. He is strong and He is my strength. He is my refuse. He is the one I need to get through each and every day.