Lately I have been feeling like I am at this awkward age in life where nothing seems to be like the right move to make. I am too old to want to live at home, yet too young to be able to support myself. And all of my hopes and dreams seem to be years down the road.
I am 22 years old. I have graduated college, I am going to grad school, and I work part time with kids. I feel like I should be way past all of this. I feel like I should have my own place, my own friends here in Florida, and should be falling in love (that may be because I was just at a wedding).
But instead I feel stuck. I feel like I am still that college girl who Mom and Dad still support (which I am BEYOND grateful for). I just don't feel like the adult I thought I would be by this point in my life.
If you had asked me 4 years ago right after my high school graduation where I thought I would be it would be completely different from where I am now. I thought I would at least have a ring on the finger, if not married. I would have a legit job that I was in love with, and I would be making decisions about my life without having to talk 4689264 people about it.
But I am not there. And yes I know I should love where I am at and enjoy my time being young. But I cannot help but desire away the years and move onto being an "adult".
Time goes by so fast. I am constantly reminding myself to live in the moment and remember every little detail. And when the time is right everything will fall into place. I am a firm believe in the idea that everything happens for a reason.
And maybe my reason for not being where I thought/want to be is that God has a much grander plan for me than I can even imagine! And I know that to be true. And I know that when the time comes I will look back on my life and be thankful it did not come any sooner than it did.
But friends I need your help a bit. Prayer for becoming content with my life would be great. If I have learned nothing else I have learned that through faithful prayer I will become satisfied.
And one day I will look back on this post and laugh. I will have come to where I want to be and be grateful for this time of my life.