Last week I ran 1 time. And I hated it. I barely made it 1 mile and my calves completely cramped up and I was miserable. I didn't run any other day that week. I had my excuses of working too much and being tired and having other things to do.
Bad runs combined with not losing weight (instead gaining a lot) and not reaching my running goals wore on me. I wanted to give up...I thought that maybe I was just meant to be fat. I have been most of my life so why not keep on with it.
That was until as I finished another not favorite run yesterday morning. And after I posted on Intsagram my discouragement I got the most amazing message. It's amazing how God knows exactly what I need when I am at my lowest. Kristin I cannot thank you enough for sending this to me!
I am not one to cry over little messages like this, but I cried. Hearing that I had inspired someone blew my mind. Me?! The fat girl who runs slower than Christmas?!
After reading this I made a promise to myself. I promised I was going to take my health back again no matter what it took. I am a runner and I will run that half marathon in October. I am going to go back on a strict diet and I am going to lose the weight. I will not be fat anymore.
Sometimes we all need that reminder that we can do this. After getting mine I really do have a desire to get moving again. I went shopping yesterday and bought all the right foods. And I am going to take running one day at a time. Yesterday I ran 1.5 miles. Today I will run 2. And the next 2.5. And I will keep going from there.
Thank you all SO much for any and all encouragement you have given me in the past. I promise myself and everyone that I will conquer all of this once and for all!